Good times

As I was fixing my things, I found this again. I started this month with you in my thoughts, looks like I'm gonna be ending it the same way as well. As weird as it sounds, I was smiling at the sight of this and all the memories it brings.

This January

I'm thankful that after a long while, we were finally able to look at the same sky at the same time. There are just a lot of little things worth more than what it actually does. I have no other prayer for this morning than better and more wonderful things to come. 😊

My last love letter

If there's one thing I'd like to be thankful about all these, it's that, I'm not the one left with all the regrets. It may be deeply painful now, but I'm somehow glad that I know I have done everything that I could have possibly done to fix and keep the relationship.I know I have done my part - mine and more. I guess, it's safe to say that at least I'm not the one left with the "what if's".

Believe me when I say I believed you when you said you love me and that has never changed; I believed you when you said you'll take everything back if you could only do so; when you said that you'll make things right when you already have the courage in you. I still believe in you. And I believe that this person who you think you are right now is not your best self for I have seen him and for more than 6 years he completed my life.

But what is done is done, there's no turning back now. We've already said our goodbyes we're capable of uttering at the moment. I felt your pain as you felt mine. No one knows what the future will bring but I know deep in my heart that there will come a time when our paths will converge again. I still have not lost that hope and I know you have not as well. No one can say if our time has already passed or our time is yet to come. Only God can tell. For now, I guess we know how much we've both lost, how much has been said and done. Let's keep it at that. Healing takes time and I acknowledge the fact that it is not I who's been the only one hurt.

So let me take this opportunity as well to thank you for everything. I have told you countless times that I have grown so much this year as a person than all of my lifetime combined. I have learned a lot. And this is something I have yet to learn, but as what I have promised you, I will try. Goodbye, Sam. Please believe me when I say too, that all I've ever wanted for you is to be truly happy. And for the last time, I love you.

Fearless

Let's just say that this week has not been one of the best, not one of the good, and not even one of the so-so either. Haha It would've crushed my old self, then, but right now, I guess I'm too adamant on changing my old ways.

As far as I'm concerned, I have received the best advice this week. "Well, that sucks I know," he said, "but I guess that'll just depend on how you'll look at things. A normal person will look at it plainly and say,'You're at the bottom'. But a wise person will look at it differently and see that you're on top. It just depends on your perspective."

And I guess, it is. It all is. Thanks for this, Mr. Navalez. I can't thank you enough, actually. Upside-down, it is, then! No wonder all children always seem to be so happy - they never fail to amuse themselves with life's complexities. :)

FINALLY!

I would just like you to know that your stalking days are over. One more move, and I just might see you in court. :3

Anti-cybercrime bill now a law-criminalizes bashing

♥

And it's nice to know that now we're in a better and happier place. ♥ ☺

This July: Don't you worry...♥

...because even if life offers problems difficult to handle than it seem;
...because even if sometimes we rarely find time to be at peace even with our own selves;
...because even if we encounter people highly different from ourselves;
...because even if stressors in life are everywhere;
...because even if delegated tasks are more than what your two hands can bear;
...because even if we don't get to have everything in life;
...because even if we don't get to be always with the people we love;
...because even if we don't always get what we want;
...because even if it's too difficult to be thankful and grateful for blessings;
...because even if life places you in roads where optimism is too difficult to find;
...because even if we often fail;
...because even if others look down on us;
...because even if frustrations get the best of us;
...and because even if no one understands exactly the difficult shit we're at...

...as Bob Marley puts it, "every little thing's gonna be alright"

...and because you're the only one with the capability to actually ruin or make your day. ♥

Readers, beware

This is totally a mushy, cheesy, call-it-whatever-you-want post.

Proceed with caution.

Don't say I didn't warn you!!!

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I often spend my day daydreaming about....

...having a picnic date with you again (it's been years since we last did that)
...spending even just one day together without any work, acads or problems to think about
...talking with you under the shades of Freedom Park
...eating out at a decent restaurant with you
...cuddling
...our next travel adventure
...having long conversations with the imaginary you
...stress-free, carefree day for us
...sand, sea, sky, swimming, you
...permanent meet-ups
...coffee dates
...food trips
...long walks under the moonlight
...the rush of cool breeze under the stars as I sit beside you on a pavement
...simpler and less complicated life

I want all these and more but I guess I just can't have them at the moment. So, for the time being, all I'm left with are my thoughts and the need to pour the frustrations out.

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So, as I was digging up our sites, I got hold of these. I don't know what is it with Januaries but it sure is one lucky month for us I think:

The wind was cold and heavy.. The night was quiet.. We stopped at the sidewalk to talk.. We both did a little talking.. She gave me more tears than words..
About 30 months and 2 days ago we vowed to love each other forever.. Along the way are struggles, pain, suffering, what have you.. We surpassed those.. We are happy.. We are proud.. I love her.. She loves me.. I thought we were perfect.. I thought love is enough.. What I thought to be just right for 30 months and 2 days is not enough.. Love is not enough to make this relationship work..
Between the line 'I love you' are spaces.. Spaces that need to be filled with responsibility and care.. Both of which lack within me.. I know for 30 months and 2 days she persisted.. She was happy but within her, she was crying.. In the end I realized that it was I who has a problem.. The only problem is me.. I cannot blame her for being mad at me.. I am mad at me too..
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in an opportunity.. An optimist sees an opportunity in every difficulty". This is the time to look at things in a different way.. This is my chance to once again prove my worth.. Only and only if the door is not yet closed..
I love her.. And I am sorry..(Jan.18, 2009, 1:54am)

One of our most kadiri shots together. We do have a loooong history. Haha

CONTENTMENT.. A word which shoud've not existed?

(January 23, 2010)

As they say, people will never be contented. The word's existence in our dictionaries reflects how human aims for the ideal which is a strike to the moon so to speak. People will also look for better things. A better car. A better house. Even a better partner. And I was never an exception to this human nature.

Indeed they are right. I can never be contented. However, I still found some exceptions.

About four years ago, I met someone who gets better and better everyday. She never fails to make me laugh at her silly jokes. She always manage to bring a crack of smile out of me every time that I refused to do so. She gives me a double-beat whenever I saw her smile, whenever I feel her skin. She always break the ice out of my frozen situations. She made me fall in love and fall deeply more in love everyday.

I know people might call me a fool. But I'd rather be a fool than hide this evidences which clearly showed me that the word CONTENTMENT is not a fallacy.

I found my exception. I found you. I love you and I want you to know how contented I am

Ah, the breath of young love. :))

...you have always had that sweetness inside of you that just melts every teardrop away. Gosh, how many times can I reiterate I'm missing you badly? :(

You and your mad drawing skills! Crazy! Haha (Meet monkey cutie, Sam and I's stuffed baby)

And as I end this post, I didn't expect to see this. Another reminder that as difficult and tough this relationship has been, the element of laughter and fun has never left us. I just wish to get to be with you again for real.

Week 1.1

I may not have understood and approve of all your means, but I'm beginning to understand now.

It just proves your affection - how much you'd like to change for the better not only for yourself, but for us. Thank you. No one has actually done that for me before. And that's not the best part yet. I guess the best part of these all is being motivated to grow and actually being allowed to grow. There are room for errors, but there can never be enough room for improvements.

This may not reach you soon enough, but THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS MAKING ME ASPIRE TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON. ♥

Guess what...

I think I'm about to flip...

It's that itch I can't help but scratch;
more like a withdrawal syndrome addicts feel;
or like mania, depression, hope and faith all at the same time.

It's crazy and I have to deal with it. It's unhealthy and it has to stop.

How much is too much?

There are all sorts of love. From Colors of Love, written by J.A. Lee in 1973, he identified six kinds of relationships that might be called as love: Eros - the romantic, passionate love; Ludus - the playing, uncommitted love; Storge - slow-developing, friendship-based love; Pragma - the mutually beneficial, unromantic love; Mania - obsessive, possessive love; and Agape - the gentle, caring, giving type of love. I say, there's a 7th kind of love - the pathetic, obsessive, cheap and unrequited love and I'd like to call it Diana. 

Thepast few months have been a struggle for Sam and I. We haven't been seeing as often as before; we are stressed out more than our individual lives could handle; and are just tired of how life is slowly moving for the both of us. To make things worse, this girl came and claimed things of all sorts, harassed me in every way possible in all of my social networking sites and just wouldn't stop. 

Last January, I unluckily found out that this particular girl has been consistently sending me messages on twitter, facebook, tumblr, etc. I initially got irritated, of course. She was feeding me things - LIES. The "biggest lie" as Sherlock puts it - a lie so big, enveloped in the truth that you'll be doubting the real truth as well. This was a rather "wise" (sort of) way to put things in retrospect considering how cheap and pathetic the means were. Of course, I was shocked. I mean, I never thought of these kinds of things even before Sam and I got together. It was just not in his personality and he had a lot of personal experiences in regards to cheating that he himself despises those who are capable of such. So, I eventually shrugged it off. 

Weeks have passed that I began forgetting about her. I mean, I was busy and had a lot of better things to mind, so it wasn't at all that hard. Then, a big fight came and a friend unintentionally mentioned her in one of our conversations. So, being a curious mutt as I am, I visited her site again only to find out there were new pictures of her and the boyfriend - together. I GOT PISSED (to put it lightly). Who wouldn't? Those shots had to be new. The boyfriend and I haven't talked about her for awhile and the last time, I remembered asking him if she has ever visited in Puerto and the response was a "No". So, yes, it was new. 

Hours passed and I suddenly got an explanation from the boyfriend. He said, they had a common friend - his officemate. He told me, this guy friend of his invited him over a drinking session and when he got there, she was there. Being polite as he was, he didn't leave and just stayed. I say, she planned it all up - a set-up just so she can be with him. I mean, if it was a "highschool reunion" why would she suggest to that guy to invite Sam? PATHETIC. Brainless move. Can you be any more conspicuous? Well of course he said, he can't jump into conclusions about things as those are only the facts that he knows before and upon getting there and he'd never do anything to jeopardize the relationship that we have built just for that. I believe him. But then again, that doesn't change the fact that I utterly abhorred what happened.

After contemplating on things, I realized that THIS HAS TO STOP. I've been passive about it but it doesn't mean that I am complacent about it. This has gone on the extremes. I never even thought that this kind of delusional act will last for months! I mean, in my world, women don't do that! Ladies don't act that way! So maybe this is life's way of teaching me that there are people like that - cheap girls like that. 

I'm sorry about all the anger this post brings but I am just overwhelmingly pissed at the situation. There's just enough bullshit one person can take and I have to say that the final line has definitely been crossed. 

Below this line are things directed to you, ole' miss for I know that you have a habit of reading my blog, among the other few things your mind is capable of reading. Use the google search box if you can't understand. I know it'll be of much use to you.

__________________________________________________________

STOP ALL THESE NONSENSE. You want Sam? You can go and have him. I'll bet you my life he won't go even a single step towards you if I dump him. The only edge you have over me is that you are geographically near him. But we both know that'll change soon, don't we? Is that the reason why you're trying to play all of your chips now? Desperate? So I thought. 

STOP MESSING WITH US. What else do you want? You have caused one or two fights here and there but can't you see, that's all you can do to affect us?

You know the best part? He laughs at the absurdity of the things you are saying to me, your posts, pictures and all. 

Go and find another person to bother with your irritating and pathetic self for I am already sick of it.

Helluva Traveler

Don't let the title fool you. I'm really not one, honestly. Being a traveler would mean fearless commute sessions, marvelous visio-spatial memory, and in constant lookout for that natural high adventures bring. I'm not all of those. And maybe now's still not the time to be even one of those. But, traveler or not, I was in 4 places last Saturday and unbelievably spent some time in each.

The adventure (sort of) started in Puerto Galera. It was my last day for that stay and was having trouble saying goodbye. No one can't blame me, actually. Sam and I haven't been spending that much time together lately because of all the reasons in the world and have decided to take a leave and just take a vacation. But since time immemorial, bad luck seems to love me that every time I visit, I sort of pocket rain with me. So whoala, my whole stay there, it was raining. And mind you, it has been one heavy shower of raindrops. So anyhoo, yes, it was my last day, morning, and breakfast in Puerto Galera. And by 10:45am I was aboard a boat, sailing towards Batangas port and of course, the sun is shining already above me. And just between you and me, a sun tan is kind of a little too late. *Sigh*

I arrived in Batangas around 11:30am and spent the whole time in that area travelling on-board a bus this time. I haven't slept much during that travel. I was kind of thinking more of the things that passed and the things to come so yes, I pretty much had a lot in mind.

Then, I spent a couple of minutes in Manila, fixed a couple of things at the dorm, got rid of some and then another couple of minutes to relish the aircondition before hitting the sunny streets again. And the last place of course is Cavite (which is where I'm at as I'm writing this post).

So there you have it, the adventures and misadventures of this ole miss last March 24,2012.

__________________

As I sat there staring at the vast sky, I realized one thing: I NEED A CHANGE OF SCENERY. It has been awhile since I enjoyed and was contented. There was a time that I enjoyed everyday of my life no matter how difficult circumstances were. I miss that. And the blue sky and sea brought me back that longing. Certainly, I am at loss right now - I am frightened at how unpredictable and shady the future is. I am miss planner. I never leave my bed without having a clear-cut idea of what I'm doing for the day and the days to come. Heck, I had plans even during my bummest days. And so, naturally, this little missy inside me is panicking and fearful for the lack of one. Somehow along the way I have lost the sense of purpose. And I know it's not good. With this age and the world passing by me, time is definitely of the essence. And knowing that I have already wasted a whole lot of it trying to figure out my place in the world, is not very comforting. So maybe, just maybe, I need more skies and more seas and more staring to finally figure out what to do.

Taken during my first Puerto Galera trip (Feb, 2011)

Basta pag nasa elbi, laging happy!

HAHAHA Stupid and lame rhyming pero what the heck. I have just been overly joyed with my last visit at my University. Samahan mo pa ng pagkain, alak (though I didn't drink that much - defensive?☺), videoke and of course FRIENDS! Oh yeah! Walang init-init kahit na summer na summer!

DAY 1:

A fun and intimate day with le boyf. :)

I really missed this. When we were still attending classes, we frequented this place. We just love how serene and relaxing this one place seem to be. We have taken too many strolls down its pavement and grasses; sat at all the cemented benches; looked at the different clouds passing by; and talked about all too many dreams, plans, frustrations and happiness. Freedom Park will always be a special place for the two of us - it has been that sole place that has seen us and our love blossom.Aw! Mushy! HAHA
DAY 2:

Lunch at Eat Sumo and dinner at Auntie Pearl's

Of course, an elbi visit can never be complete if we do not meet-up with friends. The people we have learned to call friends will always be dear to us aside from the place itself. "Lahat ng bagay nagiging masaya kapag kaibigan ang kasama". True enough. ☺




DAY 3:

Fun fun day with Grekka, Nica and Kuya Wilson. As always, I extended my elbi stay. Was supposed to go home the day after but due to that overwhelming happiness only felt with closest friends, I ended up staying a tad longer than planned. Pero okay lang. Sulit na sulit namang talaga!
Nang magising si Nica, narealize niyang gusto niya talagang mag-swimming. So, an hour later, tadaaaah! Nasa Pook na kami ni Mariang Makiling at nageenjoy sa mainit na panahon at malamig na tubig. Sarap eh! ♥

Elbi will always be that one place I can de-stress. It has always been that comfort zone that clothes me whenever I'm down. Will always be thankful to it esp. for the friends I've made through the years. Until my dearest friends are there, I won't ever tire of going back again and again and again. ☺

♥

It has been a happy day, indeed! Someone decided to give me a visit to make up for not showing up on my birthday! Haha!

I love it when Sam shows up here. It's just a breath of fresh air - something new from my cyclical life. Well, we never do something utterly special whenever. We just goof around, watch television (or a movie if there's a decent one), go to the nearest mall and eat out. For today, I think we've kind of highlighted that last one on the list - we just ate a LOT of things today. Haha But whatever, forget that reducing diet I've been planning to do just last week. It has always been appetizing to eat with this guy. Haha

The best part is, I get to have two new reads today! Yehey!

These are great additions to my Classics Collection ♥
You know how long I've been meaning to buy
Love in the Time of Cholera.
THANKS! :D

On a personal note: Thanks so much Sam, for these babies. Something extra, extra to top off our special day together. :) I loooooovie you! Til next time! Mwuah! <3

My longest blog entry to date

I know I've had this long overdue post. Haha Sorry. I really became busy last week (believe it or not). ☺ So anyhoo, here goes...

MONDAY: 

I went to Makati thinking that I'll be having an interview. I really prepared for it, mind you. I can't be talked to properly the day before - as in I was bothering Sam to help me with that interview. It was supposed to be my 2nd and a big-time company owner's the one to interview me (geez, imagine my chills!).

Of course, when you are attending something important, you want everything to be smooth-sailing and you never expect anything bad to happen. It is monday, so I was definitely expecting the Monday hassle a.k.a. "Manila Traffic" that's why I left home 3 hours away from my scheduled interview (7a.m., imagine that!) but what awaited me was not in the least of what I was expecting. Of all days it could've happened, drivers decided to have a bus strike on the same day of my freakin' interview! A deirm bus strike! Gah! The traffic I dealt with was ten times more frustrating than normal monday traffics! I knew I should have hitched with my mom all the way to Manila. The traffic situation alone is horrendous, the long line that awaited me at MRT (Pasay station) added up to brighten my day.

It was really this chaotic that Monday morning

My solution? I taxied my way to the office and got to spend about ~200Php+ one way. I arrived there exactly 10am, all sweaty and trying not to look at all tired. Good thing, my interviewee was still preoccupied that time that I had to wait a few minutes more, so I was able to fix myself properly in time of our conversation.

Well, what happened after was not exactly what I was expecting. I know life has this way of surprising us but it really was not in the least of what I was expecting (and I mean that in a very good way). You see, I went there expecting an interview and what I got was a job offer already. Details of the project was immediately discussed, without having me to process it and think about what I am about to deal with in the first place. I mean, don't I get the choice to accept it or not? HAHA

So, apparently, I neither had the voice nor the courage to speak up that I am not yet accepting the project and I am still thinking about it, so I ended up having to start working already that instant. haha It was a whirlwind, believe me. No one expects getting jobs instantly with this world drenched with recession. I guess, I was just one of the lucky ones, or they were just that desperate to get the position filled.

On that day, I was so tired from walking and commuting and having to start working without my mind set fully on what I was exactly doing. I had no time to process and ponder on things. I just went with the flow, I guess. But on my way home, I had this private moment all to myself and that's when I was able to gather my thoughts completely. I know I have been constantly wanting a job these past few days but I have neglected this one thing that should've been my priority as of the moment - NMAT.

I have been long preparing myself for that medical school application I'm dreaming of. Pre-med course was off my list a year before already; even my licensure exam is. What I now lack is that NMAT exam to pass. Considering that it'll be this coming Dec.12 already, I had to decide immediately which will be more important - money or future? Well, as you all may know, of course, I have chosen the latter. My boyps was right - "Ano ba ang mas importante sa'yo, pansamantalang titulo o ang future mo? Masyado ka atang nasisilaw sa job title mo. Titulo lang yan. Hindi ba't mas maganda ang DOCTOR kesa SUPERVISOR?". And there you go, those were the words that made me cling to my decision. And yes, I do believe I am the first person in the entire Philippines to decline a Supervisory position.

TUESDAY:

After that dragging monday, I had no choice but to be up early that tuesday (even if it was a Holiday). You see, I had to write my first ever resignation letter. Although it wasn't as formal as one would expect, after all, I just want to call it that way since I did start working already, so I owe them to at least write a sort of goodbye letter.

And this was all that's left of your "presence"
 in our humble abode :)

I know I'd be receiving a lot of raised brows after this, but to tell you the truth, I did weigh the situation. I did a lot of thinking and this decision was no short-boiled one. And writing that letter was no easy thing to do, too. Well, I could've just texted and all, but I opted to just write them a mail to give them a better view of my situation and make them understand me more. I despise misunderstandings. And after all, I know that they'll be giving me judgments the minute they read that letter of mine, but whatever. That's the least of my worries already. I made that decision and that's final. I have no regrets about it in any sort of way.

Anyhoo, I thought that that was the least of my worries for the day. Turns out, fate has another unexpected thing for me that day. SAMURPRISE! hahaha! My boyfriend surprised me in time for our Monthsarry. Awww isn't he amazing? :) Click here for details about that day :)

And so, it was a great twist. After a very tiring Monday, my Tuesday turned out to be pretty amazing ☺

WEDNESDAY:

To be honest, my Wednesday was not at all remarkable. I cannot remember one thing I did on that day. Maybe it was the usual bum day for me, well I don't know.I just can't really remember. So, let's skip this day, shall we? ☺

THURSDAY:

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Yes. I do believe it is more than appropriate to start this day's entry with a shriek. :D You see, I've long awaited this day. It is no other than Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows' advanced screening! I cannot reiterate enough on how much I've enjoyed the movie. It gave me chills and thrilled me in a lot of parts even if I was already expecting all of it to happen. HAHA I must really congratulate the Director - the Cinematography was just awesome. And, the actors of course! They really did a great job this time. They've definitely matured in terms of acting. Kudos, everyone! ☺

Yes. This made me fall in love with the books, movies, and
 everything about it twice over!:D

Aaaaaand, to top it all of, I was able to watch the film with my bestest best friend, Karla!:D It has been a long time since we last saw each other and I must say, even if she's real tired, she's still one force to be with. Hahaha. I missed her and our long talks. ☺ I can smell a second date lurking around the corner! ☺

Well, of course, that day was not only a Potter day. Before all the fun and movie-watching, I did a couple of very "productive" things, so to speak. First off, I was able to apply for NMAT! Woohoooo! As you all know, no one in the Philippines can enter Medicine School without having to take the National Medical Achievement Test (NMAT). So, as of November 18, 2010, my path to MedSchool has officially started. ☺

I saved the best for last of my Thursday escapade - I finally got hold of my PRC LICENSE!!!! Aaaaah! The adrenaline I felt upon holding that envelope is totally unexplainable. Believe me, what I felt that moment is beyond words. After all the reviewing and hard work, I was finally able to get hold of that one tangible thing that can shout to the world I did kick-ass great!☺

Oh yes, here's more proof  of it! Mwuahahaha! ☺

FRIDAY:

Well, I needed rest, don't I? So probably, the best way to describe this day was a "Rest Day" for me. After all, I had three undertakings the day before. ☺ So yes, let us skip this day too.

SATURDAY:

Aside from a fact that it's a weekend and everybody loves weekends, Saturday last week has also been a fun, fun day for me. This was also one of the days I was looking forward to the whole week.

My high school friends has been planning to have an Outreach Program this coming December and the initial planning day was set to be this day. So, as you can just imagine, seeing them is really something to look forward to since I don't really get to spend that much time with them anymore. Plus, we'll be seeing each other for a good cause this time around, and not just for sheer pleasure. ☺ As expected, bouts of laughter aired through the whole time we were together even if there were only 4 of us that came. It has definitely been a wonderful day. There can really never be a dull moment with these guys. And it's always just nice to spend time with people whom you've grown up together with. ☺

The first part of our meet-up involved dinner (courtesy of my good friend Doña Gianna.haha!), planning out the outreach program, planning all sorts of other things (like gimmicks, out-of-towns, next meet-ups, and the list goes on. haha☺), and mostly, our endless blabbering about our lives. Hahaha. Well, you can't blame us, we can't just run out of things to talk about because, it usually takes us about a year before seeing each other again. Hahaha Oh yes, we are a bunch of busy people.☺

As we were about to go home, we all realized that we still do not want to part ways. Kung baga, bitin na bitin pa ang gabi. haha So, in an instant, we've decided to pick friends up and go bar-hopping somewhere in the Makati area. We contacted almost all of our clique but not one replied. Hahaha! Maybe they're all asleep that time. It was about past 10 in the evening already. So, we just instantly thought of picking up Alwin (since, according to him earlier that evening, he has no ride and we just assumed that he's just stuck at home). When we arrived there, we were right about two things: 1. he is indeed at home and 2. he is indeed already sleeping. Hahaha! Grabe nakakahiya talaga. We were like raiders of their house, picking up a poor sleeping boy. Hahaha! ☺ Well, amidst the chaos we brought to their household, he ended up going with us. Hahaha!

Cheers to more than a decade of friendship and going home early in the morning!hahaha I ♥ U guys :))

So there, for all those wondering what happened to me the week before, this is for you. Haha. It has been a blast week for me, indeed and I enjoyed every minute of it. Oh yeah! ☺

Sinigang na Bangus at its finest!

My day started unusually first, because I woke up early (yes, 7am IS early for me), and I have to do something that I have never done before - a resignation letter; PLUS, my body ached all over for all the walking and commuting I did yesterday with my 3-inched-wedges (I know it was not the best idea and I'm still suffering the consequences until now). So, as you can just imagine, it was not much of a great Tuesday morning considering it's a holiday. 

As I finished sending my resignation email to a couple of people, our house-help told me that there's someone asking for me. I checked the clock and it was just about 9:30am - I was completely dumbfounded. I really had no idea who would like to visit me that early. So, thinking that it was just some mailman, needing a signature of mine, I went out and got even more shocked at the one waiting for me at the doorstep. HAHA 

Si Sam! HAHA Nakakahiya. Sorry na, please. Wala pa akong ligo, wala pang suklay at wala pa maski hilamos at ang boypren ko ay nasa labas! Oh man, what a lucky day indeed. HAHA 

As I came close to him, he uttered these two words in the sweetest way I've ever heard - "Happy Monthsary!" and in that instant, my heart just melted and pounded with giddiness and guilt. Ooops, I forgot. HAHA. The good thing, though, he's foreseen the forgetting part (sorry, I've really been busy and preoccupied ;p) and what followed suit is a series of *kilig moments* - we watched a movie, ate at the nearest mall, and talked about a lot of things. 

My favorite sinigang - Bangus belly! :))
(What Sam ordered for me to eat. You see, even if I wanted some roasted chicken, I had no choice.:D)
Nevertheless, it was the best Sinigang I've had in quite awhile. :))

On a personal note: Thanks dear for that surprise. I really wasn't expecting that. It has been a fun, fun day. If I can only see you on a daily basis like before. But time's changed, and we have no choice but to live by it (and it's nice to know that somehow, we find ways on coping with it). :) I love you. Until our next date! <3

highlight of the month

I have tried over and over and over to write the happy thoughts ringing in my head of today's experience. But like crappy reports, it gets crumpled and thrown in the bin over and over and over again also. Well, not that my previous drafts were really sort of crappy, I just find myself writing a different thought every time - something not suited for a fun-filled day. I just like the feeling to be immortalized somehow in an almost perfect (if not perfect) way. Hm, maybe I'll scratch the intro instead. I will just swivel into the details and try my hardest to bring into justice (in writing) today's wonderful day. :))

See, who wouldn't enjoy
 such a view?:D

My boyfriend and I have been separated (geographically, that is) for quite a while now. For two people who are used to be together almost the whole time, I think we are doing an awesome job with this long distance relationship thing. The first few days were horrific, I admit. We both just can't pace well with each other's sway but eventually we got a hang of it. I cannot say that we are masters of this craft, oh no, not yet. We have much to learn and the worse is yet to come for us, but whatever, we are ready to face it. We both have decided to make this one work and I guess, that's the most important thing of all. :)

Since for the past few days the boyfriend is finding himself too stressed at work, not to mention unhappy because of missing me too much (Haha!), we planned the other night to have an instant meet-up today. Although we weren't able to really set out a plan for this meeting, it turned out to be the best it could ever be. We met at around 1pm-ish and I brought him some lunch to munch on (since I already ate one at home). I had the luxury of just observing him eat in gaiety the meat-stuffed pizza I got for him. I just love seeing him eat with all the ardor in the world. I swear, I know not one person who can eat that heartily. Great meet-up start? Check! :)

After lunch (or his, rather), we got a lot time to cuddle and talk about what's happening lately in each other's lives. We did a lot of catching-up because hardly ever can mobile communication be enough to fully grasp and express one's feelings and daily takings. So, we did talked a lot -as in for 2 hours non-stop. Haha Okay, fine, I did most of the talking maybe like 75% of it. And he just laughed off my being so ever talkative.

Can't you just see how happy we are?:D

When we finally tired of talking and sleepiness started to get a hang on us, we finally decided that it is time to go someplace else. So, since my boyfriend has just recently declared himself Arcade-addict, we went to SM Calamba and played which mostly comprised of me, losing away most of our tokens. Boohoo! Haha

Our one day get-away won't be complete if there won't be a food trip alongside it. We happen to pass by this food stall selling all sorts of Japanese finger foods and bought some crab sticks, noodles, squid tofu, and something-which-I-have-already-forgotten.

I swear these are the closes things the foods we ate looked like. Haha

After his grocery shopping, we headed out to the nearest bus stop. He was just about to accompany me there until I ride a bus to get me home, but we were still not ready to call our meeting to an end. So, he ended up riding the bus with me to Alabang and we went to 2 other malls partly just to find this microphone jackI was looking for and mostly because we still want to extend our time together. :)

It has been a long day for both of us but I had a wonderful time and cannot reiterate more on that. I just have to say that Sam is that sole person in the world I can never get tired of talking to, be it for an hour, 2 hours, 5hours, or even forever, straight. There is just a lot to talk about when with this guy. One of the many reasons why I love him. :) This day couldn't have spelled P-E-R-F-E-C-T any other way that it already seemed to be a dream, only it isn't.

Cheers to love and happiness! Oh yes, kudos to that! :)

Chocolates can not solely symbolize love. :))

After such a surly mood last night, I made up today with heavenly peace and all gleeful bashfulness one can all gather up in one morning. Haha Too melodramatic. Forgive me, I've been deeply compelled to Emily Bronte's Wuthering Heights lately. So anyhoo, before I stork to another topic, let me share as to why a sudden turn of emotions. :)


Friends and acquaintances will surely agree that Sam and I are not the sweetest of couples - in the public eyes, at least. And maybe that has been the ultimate secret of our relationship. We keep things cool, relaxed, fun and without boundaries. That's how we've been. That's how we are. That's how we'll always be.


This morning, as we were exchanging text messages (as it is rare nowadays compared to how we used to before because of conflicting schedules), he happen to share a certain commercial which he  cannot help but associate with me. 

Coffee mate's latest commercial. :)

After watching it too, I fully understood his fussing about it. Apart from it being a short, cute ad, it is no doubt us. "We" are that couple. In more ways than one, it epitomizes us. :)


... and that made me feel so much loved. 


... and that also made me miss him more. <3