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I was the second one to be interviewed and realized upon opening the office door on exit, that I was the last one to leave as well. Now I can't help but batter my brains inside out while trying to think if it's a good thing or a bad one.

Did my answers sound fabricated? Do I look like someone who is not determined to enter Med School? Is there something wrong with wanting to help? Is it really superficial for people nowadays to actually genuinely serve his/her countrymen especially the needy ones? What is wrong with being contented with fulfillment? Is there not one other person aside from me that does not consider (even to the slightest atomic sublevel) money as gauge of self-worth and career advancement? Do I look like someone who'll work only for money?

If I wear dresses and is a girly type of lass, that doesn't reduce the fact that I can also be your adventurous, cowboy-type. If you haven't been on slums, that doesn't mean I haven't been to as well. I guess experience-wise in terms of community service, I have more than you. I have been to squatters' areas, slums, helped Mangyans, homeless people, children and adults alike, and have not once thought of asking for money for my services. I don't see anything wrong with public service and I will stand firm on all the things I said until eternity. People have different opinions, and are all entitled to one. I respect whatever you believe at, you may have seen the business head-on for more years than I have, but that doesn't mean that there are no people like me - people who are ready to offer this country the service it has long been thirsting for. Then there's another thing we can't be on the same page for - you see it as a business, I see it as a venue for social change.


I have to say, the most difficult part of an interview will have to be the commute back home. 




If only I knew this song that Monday afternoon, or before it, I would have sung my lungs out in front of my interviewer just so I can have a rebut when she said:
"Hindi pa ako convinced sa mga sagot mo" (I am not yet convinced with your answers);

and whenever she made faces and raised her eyebrows with matching "Sigurado kaaaaaa?!" (Are you sure?!) whenever I talk about public service and all the things I stand ground for. 

Please, wag mo akong itulad sa'yo.


4 comments:

Grexinity said...

You stood your ground. That's my girl! :) Frankly, I thought you did good. You went in there, poured your heart out. No regrets. It was perfect.

If she can't take your word for it, then she shouldn't be asking you. Haha.

edzdeline said...

Thank you, Gretchen Marie. :) I honestly was a bit shaken after the interview. Napaisip ako, "May mali ba sa'kin, tol? Sa pag-iisip ko?" HAHAHA!

And then I realized, why even fret? It only means genuine doctors are rare nowadays. And someday, I'll be one of those few. Sarap. Privilege yun. :)

Anonymous said...

It's actually funny, Edz, how people see genuine help/volunteerism as something unbelievable these days. If you do a single favor that they ask, they would usually ask you how they could repay (which, more often, equates to monetary reward). I honestly do not understand that there are times when people would think that you're help is equals to a Sbarro date or a few thousand pesos when in fact you do it out of fun or out of genuine help. Some people do not really understand that you are doing that out of self-fulfillment or what-have-you, more than the helping part.

Blah blah blah. Okay, I'm already blabbing in your blog. But the bottom line is GO OUT AND HELP IN ANY WAY YOU CAN. KEBS SA SASABIHIN NG IBA! :))))

edzdeline said...

Tama, Kaffiboom. I agree with you. Salamat. I know for one you'll understand. :) Mwuah! <3

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